feels so close yet so far.

this girl here feeling so emotional and so she post up this song because she feels the lyrics describes her feelings freaking damn well. *sigh* please be here soon my dear? :'(

                                               

a rainbow after hurricane

some said,you shouldn't remember your past for it gave you so much scars more than bliss memories but have you ever think back,without those scars,are you going to be the person you are today?are you as strong   as you are now?wiser?mature?no,right?so sometimes in certain situations you should be grateful for those arseholes,jerks,bitches that made your life once,a living hell because if it weren't because of them,you will never be bullet proof.remembering those scars back,those mistakes that you'd made before will make you think wiser in making decisions,choosing people carefully which you should keep in your life and which one you need to toss away.most importantly,you have come a long way from all those dog days and you survive because you're a survivor.because you're strong.

 for some reason,i really miss my past so bad,i miss the life i had before.i wish i could relive it back just to see people that i know now as merely strangers,nothing more than that.

|| Dec 2010, Ripcurl, with my childhood friend Molly,miss you xoxo ||

He's a Pop Tart.

thank you for being with me,loving me unconditionally,a place for me to vent,being a great best friend and being the most naughtiest boyfriend i ever had. ;) 3 months riding the roller coaster with you,uphill and downhill,you were there for me.painting my life with your bright and dark colours,making my life an indeed a colourful one.so,lets have some beer for that,make unapropriate jokes to each other and three cheers for three months.

to infinity with you,Dick Cheney. *hugskisshugskiss* :)

Alle Jubeln!

what happened in May? got myself a BlackBerry *very much in love with it i must say*. got myself a new novel which you can clearly see in the image below.i haven't watch the movie yet but i heard it's great but i think i want to read the writing first then i can proceed to the movie. :) on May 29th,Cecen's birthday.21 and legal!i have known him since i was 15 years old and i still recall the very first time i saw him walking down at St.Joe's bridge with his backpack and in very very very neat uniform.hahahah!so funny i couldn't believe i am with him now.since i was in a story telling mood,let me share one memory i couldn't forget until now.i was in Form 6 and he was a prefect,each time i went to the canteen without my name tag on and my white shirt untucked,he would say this "baju tuck in a,please" with a shy smile upon his face and i was like "okay okay tuck in" but as soon as he went to somewhere else,i tucked it out again.hahahaha.Cecen2,you were so skema oh dolok.hahaha. xD okay fin. :D we met on the 28th just before the midnight struck,he sent me home and before he left,he hugged me and i love the fact how loved i felt at that time,i didn't want to let him go but we both knew we had to. sigh* distance sucks,big time. :|

i bought a new bedroom lamp,lovely!i want to toss my Christmas lamp away but i think i should probably  just leave it hanging on my wall until i get a new one. :) i always wanted a tadis lamp but i have to face the fact,there's no tadis lamp in Kuching.i've been searching high and low for it but didn't found one,nada. :( no matter,i am very much please with my new lamp.such a comfort to my bedroom. :)

i just purchased a bikini from an online beachwear shop.honestly,i cannot wait for the parcel to arrive although i just made the payment this morning but really,i'm dying to see my new black triangle bikini!hope it fits though! @@ *fingers cross* lastly,since this month is all about Euro Cup,i couldn't help myself but consuming jugs after jugs of coffee or Nescafe so i would stay awake just to watch football matches but among of all Europe countries,i'm rooting for Germany this year. >:) i slept at 5 am last night and woke up at 8.although my eyes are soring but it was definitely worth it to stayed up late because Gomez was the hero last night!woohoo.beeeeers anyone? 

Mesut Ozil fan here people! :3 muahmuahmuah!

someone take me to the moon please?

and overthinking as well.i need to kick out these bad habits of mine before it's going to consume me alive.